I don't recommend buying the clip unless you're a fan of Evangelion or anime in general. You probably won't understand this scene at all, otherwise. That said, I did my very best to make a live-action version of "that scene" from the movie. Asuka is in a coma, Shinji (your POV) tries to wake her but when she rolls over, her breasts and cameltoe are exposed. You can't control yourself, so you fap into your own hand. "I'm so fucked up."